Sister, you got it all.

Summer so far has been a crazy roller coaster ride.

Actually thought everything was perfectly fine, and going my way. But fuck, that would just be way too simple for me..right? I will forever only be known as the friend, I honestly don't know why I waste my time and feelings.
Then you come along. Totally fuck up my head and feelings. I'm so confused by life, right now, that all I want to do is cry. summer shouldn't be like this.
I'm actually really scared about how all of this is going to turn out. I honestly don't want you two love birds, to actually get together. But, if I end it, then I'm just a selfish bitch. I keep saying " I'll get over it, and move on" I'm scared that I never will, and always regret saying anything in the first place.
Good thing that summer school is starting soon, because that means I can keep my mind busy for awhile and not have all this free time, thinking about stuff like this.

"Well you know what they say, go big or go home."

Next time anyone says this to me, I'm just automatically going to choose to go home, because "going big" is fun at the time, but then a HUGE mess after.

I have the softest and most amazing sheets ever.

Finally getting out of my comfort zone, brought some happiness to me.
I'm not really sure how it's going to end.
But, I think its a pretty good way to end the school year, despite the final madness.
I'm gonna make the summer mine. (:

I try to be like Grace Kelly.

I have so much to do and so little time.
Frustration and Stress is the definition of Kelsey, right now.
Someone please pray for me.
Amen.

Showcase.

I finally realized why I perform now.
Everything just seems like perfection when I do.
I never have to worry about anything go on in life, just trying to get the moves.
But, I completely understand why this is my purpose in life.

That kind of shit, just doesn't work on me.

R.I.P
To another relationship.
Well, I really don't know or explain how I feel about this, but all I know it wasn't my choice.

But, I'm on this train.
I'm moving forward, no matter what, nothing is going to stop me either.
If people want to join me on the journey, they are more then welcomed to.
But, if they wanna leave, they are more then welcome to get the fuck out.

I honestly don't know why I keep fighting through life.
But somehow, I get this desire to keep on soldiering on, because I believe that there is a light at the end of the tunnel.

In reality though, I'm afraid that no matter how much a person can fight, there is only so much that a person can take. Before, they truly just fall apart.

I wonder how much more I can possibly take.

I want sunshine.

Dear Lord,
Please let me get a good grade on this project and please help me survive the rest of the school year.
HELP ME FOCUS!
love you lots.

-Kelsey

Space.

I feel empty.
I'm scared.
Insecure.
Afraid.

No matter how loud I scream, no one will hear me.
Or take me seriously.

Shit, I don't even know if I can take myself seriously right now.
What's happening to me?

I am a jedi master.

It's interesting when you let someone be a part of your world. Let them know who is the "real" you and actually tell them things you never thought you would ever tell a person. Also, it's exciting when you also learn things about yourself in the process. I've learned that not everyone is going to like you, for who you are, but all you can do is continue being yourself, because someone out there will. That's some trippy stufff... I know I'm not perfect.. haha no where near. But, somehow I wake up every morning, with a smile on my face, and just try make something out of the day.
I used to write things about my boyfriend all the time, but now that I know he actually reads it. I'm not sure if I want to anymore. Actually, I wonder if anyone reads this, yet I really don't care if people do or not; I kinda just write this blog for myself. Writing is very relaxing to me. haha.
Well, school is almost over... that's pretty frightening. I'm so afraid of the unknown. Sometimes, I wish I could get a sign or something to let me know that I'm somewhat heading in the right direction. But, I'm such a double standard though, because at the same time I kinda enjoying the unknown, and that you have the power to decided what happens in your future.
I don't understand why people are afraid to have their feelings hurt, or getting close to a person. What's the worse that could happen? You lose their trust? You don't have that person to depend on anymore? You cry for awhile? I guess, I've been hurt so many times, by so many people. That after awhile, I've learned that a person is suppose to be in your life for a reason, and all the bad stuff that happens to you just makes you stronger, as a human being.
I'm really not sure, if anything that I'm writing right now really has a clear purpose, or a purpose at all. But, all I do know is that I'm growing ( well not taller, because let's face it..I'm tall enough. ) and learning new things. For some, this feeling would scare the living shit out of them. Well, I've never been normal, nor will I ever will be. So this indescribile feeling makes me eccentric.
Summer is coming..which means no more sweaters. ):

Could you stay my love?

Thank you, for at least, wanting to work things out. I just have to keep reminding myself, that everything is going to be okay. I just don't want this to be gone and disappear.

Everything is going to blossom again.
I know it.
I believe it.
Because in the end, we are just winging it..right?

Life isn't a movie.

Yet, Everyone expects you to smile and look strong.

I so amazed, that I put myself into these situations. I have so much to accomplished, and yet such little time. It's astounding how much I've grown,matured, and learned about myself. But even though, I'm proud about my achievements, I have this sense of drowning. I do so much for everyone else, and I feel like I fall to the bottom of the ocean in the process. Not breathing. But, I always try to swim back to the top, and live before it's too late.
The other day, I finally realized that I try to be this private person, which I'm clearly not. When I finally saw one of my secrets on Postsecret. I was so happy, that my many years of sending them in, that it was finally up there for the whole world to see. But, once I knew the everyone on the plant, who has a computer, could see my secret, and the whole time I just wanted to scream to the world, "THAT IS MY SECRET!!!" It's amazing that people send in their secrets, because they have no one else to tell them too.
I've also accepted that fact, that I can become a jealous person. I'm aware of this because when I hear that the one person I care about, has time to hang out with the boys/friends, and do homework, but somehow never have time for me. Sometimes, I feel like just telling him, and then on the other hand, I rather just say nothing, and have him be happy. Just seeing him happy, just makes me ecstatic . But once he leave, I have a sense that I will just be isolated, in the ocean, drowning by myself.

I'm afraid of who I am, and who I'm becoming.

I believe.

you're going to be my bruise.

Ying-Yang

We will never be the same.

"When it comes down to it, I let them think what they want. If they care enough to bother with what I do, then I'm already better than them."-Marylin Monroe

...I live by this quote.

Never back down.

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We're lovers! (;

I will never forget the weekend of May 15&16.
Life changing.

I can make your bed rock.

Is it June 26 yet?
I seriously can not wait to spend the summer with my lovely seester.
We both plan to dominate.
So watch out. (:

Mr.Mittens meow..

Especially when you call me so I can hear you wash your face and when you leave me voice mails that we should go on an ideal date. The best part of these moments is that I get to share them with my boyfriend and best friend, all at the same time. I've never been this happy before. Thank you.

Attention.

I officially have spring fever.
Watch out World.

Lets get physical...

You are what you eat.

There is nothing more satisfying then eating a juicy orange, after running for an hour and a half. After eating tons of tacos, for Taco Tuesday, of course, I felt so icky and was in desperate need of a little exercise. School is getting so stressful and hectic, that it was nice to just take time to better myself. Since, I am so busy I really don't have the time or effort to do that everyday, but change is good.

This melts my heart...

Be Unique.

Imagine.

"I'm a mess, I confess that I am nothing without you."

I'm getting a feeling of being complete. I never been this happy before, but I'm not questioning this sensation that I feel. I fear that this won't last for long, therefore I plan to enjoy it as long as I can.

I went from, I wishing and hoping, to now trying to believe that this is actually real.

Your Entertainment.

Ugh, I wished I had time to actually write on here..

Well, have you ever done something and thought it was the right thing to do, and then realized it wasn't. For example, like ending a long relationship thinking you'll find happiness, then you ended up being more unhappy then you were before. But, I guess all you can do is live and learn and move on with your life. No, it isn't the most easiest thing to do, esp. when you still love that person.
Jeesh, that sounds kinda depressing for Valentine's Day, but this holiday is overrated in the first place. Do we really need a holiday to celebrate a love for a person? If you loved them in the first place, then you would show them that every single day. Plus, buying someone candy or flowers isn't going to make them love you more (unless they are a gold digger, but why would you be dating a gold digger in the first place?) Also, I think basing a movie on the damn holiday is even stupider. I mean, why not make a movie about Groundhog day? or any other movie.
Also, sometimes I wish I could just escape from my busy schedule and relax and play video games all day. Between 3 hours of dance rehearsal and then 3 hours of homework anddd then trying to get some form of sleep. I love sleep, well when you are taking 7 classes at school, sleep makes you happy. Well I feel like I'm just talking about randomness. I guess that's all I have to say.

Love & Rockets,
Kelsey

Hello World (:

Hello Boys, Girls, and every living organism!

My name is Kelsey! I'm a sophomore and I'm just trying to get through my hectic, drama filled life. I've gone through a lot this year and I finally thought it was writing about my troubles and solutions would be interesting to other people.
I'm not your average girl, I don't enjoy shopping, I rather play video games and hang with my drama nerds. Oh yeah, I love musical theatre, so most of the crap on here will be about Drama club and the drama that goes with it. I got my first lead in a musical this year, and well its a lot harder then it looks, also I'm dealing with my first break up, with a boy who's in the musical. It's much harder to move on when your ex is everywhere you look.
Also, I do plan to write about people in here but I'm not dumb, All names will be changed, if I write something bad about them of course, so I can write about who and what I want to write about. But, this year is a year of change, and here I plan write about my day to day struggles and triumphs. Well world, I think this is enough reading for you today, hope you find me somewhat interesting. Can't wait to write some more!

Also, check out Grant's blog: http://mylifeasonegeek.blogspot.com/..He's my awesome freshie Love, which my link was dedicated to.

Love and Rockets,
Kelsey (: