Sister, you got it all.

Summer so far has been a crazy roller coaster ride.

Actually thought everything was perfectly fine, and going my way. But fuck, that would just be way too simple for me..right? I will forever only be known as the friend, I honestly don't know why I waste my time and feelings.
Then you come along. Totally fuck up my head and feelings. I'm so confused by life, right now, that all I want to do is cry. summer shouldn't be like this.
I'm actually really scared about how all of this is going to turn out. I honestly don't want you two love birds, to actually get together. But, if I end it, then I'm just a selfish bitch. I keep saying " I'll get over it, and move on" I'm scared that I never will, and always regret saying anything in the first place.
Good thing that summer school is starting soon, because that means I can keep my mind busy for awhile and not have all this free time, thinking about stuff like this.

"Well you know what they say, go big or go home."

Next time anyone says this to me, I'm just automatically going to choose to go home, because "going big" is fun at the time, but then a HUGE mess after.

I have the softest and most amazing sheets ever.

Finally getting out of my comfort zone, brought some happiness to me.
I'm not really sure how it's going to end.
But, I think its a pretty good way to end the school year, despite the final madness.
I'm gonna make the summer mine. (:

I try to be like Grace Kelly.

I have so much to do and so little time.
Frustration and Stress is the definition of Kelsey, right now.
Someone please pray for me.
Amen.

Showcase.

I finally realized why I perform now.
Everything just seems like perfection when I do.
I never have to worry about anything go on in life, just trying to get the moves.
But, I completely understand why this is my purpose in life.

That kind of shit, just doesn't work on me.

R.I.P
To another relationship.
Well, I really don't know or explain how I feel about this, but all I know it wasn't my choice.

But, I'm on this train.
I'm moving forward, no matter what, nothing is going to stop me either.
If people want to join me on the journey, they are more then welcomed to.
But, if they wanna leave, they are more then welcome to get the fuck out.

I honestly don't know why I keep fighting through life.
But somehow, I get this desire to keep on soldiering on, because I believe that there is a light at the end of the tunnel.

In reality though, I'm afraid that no matter how much a person can fight, there is only so much that a person can take. Before, they truly just fall apart.

I wonder how much more I can possibly take.

I want sunshine.

Dear Lord,
Please let me get a good grade on this project and please help me survive the rest of the school year.
HELP ME FOCUS!
love you lots.

-Kelsey

Space.

I feel empty.
I'm scared.
Insecure.
Afraid.

No matter how loud I scream, no one will hear me.
Or take me seriously.

Shit, I don't even know if I can take myself seriously right now.
What's happening to me?