I have the softest and most amazing sheets ever.

Finally getting out of my comfort zone, brought some happiness to me.
I'm not really sure how it's going to end.
But, I think its a pretty good way to end the school year, despite the final madness.
I'm gonna make the summer mine. (:

I try to be like Grace Kelly.

I have so much to do and so little time.
Frustration and Stress is the definition of Kelsey, right now.
Someone please pray for me.
Amen.

Showcase.

I finally realized why I perform now.
Everything just seems like perfection when I do.
I never have to worry about anything go on in life, just trying to get the moves.
But, I completely understand why this is my purpose in life.

That kind of shit, just doesn't work on me.

R.I.P
To another relationship.
Well, I really don't know or explain how I feel about this, but all I know it wasn't my choice.

But, I'm on this train.
I'm moving forward, no matter what, nothing is going to stop me either.
If people want to join me on the journey, they are more then welcomed to.
But, if they wanna leave, they are more then welcome to get the fuck out.

I honestly don't know why I keep fighting through life.
But somehow, I get this desire to keep on soldiering on, because I believe that there is a light at the end of the tunnel.

In reality though, I'm afraid that no matter how much a person can fight, there is only so much that a person can take. Before, they truly just fall apart.

I wonder how much more I can possibly take.

I want sunshine.

Dear Lord,
Please let me get a good grade on this project and please help me survive the rest of the school year.
HELP ME FOCUS!
love you lots.

-Kelsey

Space.

I feel empty.
I'm scared.
Insecure.
Afraid.

No matter how loud I scream, no one will hear me.
Or take me seriously.

Shit, I don't even know if I can take myself seriously right now.
What's happening to me?

I am a jedi master.

It's interesting when you let someone be a part of your world. Let them know who is the "real" you and actually tell them things you never thought you would ever tell a person. Also, it's exciting when you also learn things about yourself in the process. I've learned that not everyone is going to like you, for who you are, but all you can do is continue being yourself, because someone out there will. That's some trippy stufff... I know I'm not perfect.. haha no where near. But, somehow I wake up every morning, with a smile on my face, and just try make something out of the day.
I used to write things about my boyfriend all the time, but now that I know he actually reads it. I'm not sure if I want to anymore. Actually, I wonder if anyone reads this, yet I really don't care if people do or not; I kinda just write this blog for myself. Writing is very relaxing to me. haha.
Well, school is almost over... that's pretty frightening. I'm so afraid of the unknown. Sometimes, I wish I could get a sign or something to let me know that I'm somewhat heading in the right direction. But, I'm such a double standard though, because at the same time I kinda enjoying the unknown, and that you have the power to decided what happens in your future.
I don't understand why people are afraid to have their feelings hurt, or getting close to a person. What's the worse that could happen? You lose their trust? You don't have that person to depend on anymore? You cry for awhile? I guess, I've been hurt so many times, by so many people. That after awhile, I've learned that a person is suppose to be in your life for a reason, and all the bad stuff that happens to you just makes you stronger, as a human being.
I'm really not sure, if anything that I'm writing right now really has a clear purpose, or a purpose at all. But, all I do know is that I'm growing ( well not taller, because let's face it..I'm tall enough. ) and learning new things. For some, this feeling would scare the living shit out of them. Well, I've never been normal, nor will I ever will be. So this indescribile feeling makes me eccentric.
Summer is coming..which means no more sweaters. ):